We'll be there for him.

We will be the best friends possible.

closing 2010

Goodbye 2010.

Oh, you have taught me much.

Remember that thought I had as I gazed out at the lake last New Years Day. The thought I had as I trailed my seemingly happy friends along snow and ice?

It was all brand new, the slate was clean, I could go do so much with 2010.

I did.

I was accepted into the most competitive program at my university of choice. I finished my victory lap and graduated high school. I fell, hard. I lost my summer job before it even began. I won a massive scholarship. My heart was broken. I grew closer to the best friend that I have ever had. I moved out. I started university. I succeeded. I toughened up. I closed some chapters. I grew closer to God. I finished my first term of university, satisfied.

I loved and lost this year.

I gained a whole new world.

I realized the true definition of friendship. it's not to take, but to give. some people need a lesson in that.

This was another fast and slow year. In a couple days, 2011 will begin and it will be a new clean slate once again. You cannot get in my way. You cannot weigh me down. I refuse, because I'm done with the games. And I'm changing some stuff.

Perhaps sometimes I will update this blog.

But that's my message, if people even read this. I don't really care that much.

"It is better to have loved and lost, then never have loved at all"

Alfred Lloyd Tennyson

AND

"God is Enough"

Lecrae

Happy New Year.

quick update

It has been so long. I kind of forgot this was here.

Ok. Quick update:

I am at Brock. I love it.

I am growing a lot.

God is teaching me lot's all the time

I have new friends who I am so thankful for.

I have old friends that I hold onto.

That's all for now.

to the end of summer

I am going on my only holiday this summer, this week. To camp. With many friends. It shall be glorious.

This summer has been one of a kind.
I have learned much. Such as trusting God for real and waiting on Him for His answers to my many questions.

There are merely 1.5 weeks till university begins.
That's it.

More change is imminent. Funny how my first day of "real" highschool seems likes yesterday when it was almost a year ago.

Funny how I'm here. No, not funny really. I just didn't expect this all to come so quickly.

best of the best

Best friends are really the best.
perhaps that's why they are called "best".
*laughs*

I'm so incredibly thankful for mine.

Listening ears/open hearts/gentle answers/sincere advice.

A few minutes later...

WHY DID I DO THAT?

What did I achieve?
HONESTLY.

I really, really hope that I didn't do anything stupid by doing that.
But I've been known to do stupid things every once and a while so I've decided it was stupid.
UGH. So this is what too much time on my hands is like.
I. don't. like. it.

--

Btw, he's right. I do feel like that. Maybe if he tells me enough times, I'll start believing it.
Maybe I need to be a little more honest with myself.

CLEARLY I do,
cause
that
came
out
of
almost
nowhere.

when summer takes over

Well here I am, part way through summer.
Without a full time or regular part time job.
Lonely, somewhat bored and little confused.

I am trying to trust that God will provide what I need, because he knows what I need better than I do. So yeah....I guess I'm standing on that. : "Jehovah Jireh".

I'll get there.

goodbye to highschool

I've graduated high school and left it behind for good.
I suppose I could now officially call myself a 1st year Brock student.
Back to the bottom of the heap. lol.

I did well at "real" high school, achieving Honour Roll and winning the award for the department of Religion&Social Sciences.
It was honestly the best thing I could have done, and despite all the drama and craziness it was so valuable. I have encountered the world on a whole new level, and the world has encountered me. I am stronger, more determined. I am more convinced of who I am, and what I stand for.
I will not forget this year easily as I had the opportunity to touch others lives and be a light in the grey area. It was fastest school year yet and I find it difficult to believe it's July 2010 already.

Yet again, my life changes. My walking path alters and I face an unwritten chapter in which I really only know the outline.

First though, I need a summer job...

don't listen all the time

One thing I definately can't stand is when people listen to other people's "helpful" comments on what another person supposedly thinks of them.
Sometimes, it's so offbase it makes me kinda sick inside.

Haven't people realized by now they shouldn't listen to everything they hear....?

finish line

I can see the finish line.
The end of my victory lap.
The end of my one year in "real" school.
The end of high school altogether.

The beginning of something new.

(Gah, I'm going to miss this.........)

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I hate when something makes sense, in yet there's one factor that throws everything out of wack.